Random Thoughts.....What Are You Thinking?

why would i pass by compton? lol no one does by choice! lol bah i dunno last time he said he was feeling anti social and i shouldnt take it personal cuz he wasnt talking to anyone and that was on wed. and wouldnt tell me whats wrong ~.~ i thought that was a good sign he was done since he still hasnt talked to me lol

thats totally untrue, guys do that sometimes where they like to just be wit themselves, also guys arent open about a lot of things, if they arent feeling happy or stuff theyll usually keep it to themselves

well he hasnt erased me from facebook so thats good right? :3

yes, now text him (tomorrow, since its late)

neverrrrrr

nupe :3 he better cuz im not lol

Meh...He sounds moody. Did you really like him?

kinda lol im trying hard to not get too attached lol :o

Good idea.

i'd give it one last try, what is there to lose

he doesnt reply and it bothers me all day with me just staring at my phone lol

I concur, I miss texts all the time. Just one isn't enough <.< if he doesn't respond after a 2nd text, then chances are he didn't just miss it, if he's not interested anyways, another text just to find out if he is/isn't, isn't going to hurt. You won't come off as needy or clingy, it's been awhile since you contacted him, and as long as you're just being social about the text (as someone would text a friend) it won't be perceived as needy.

As for the anti-social thing, we go through that, but it usually never lasts more than a day or so, when we have bad days we don't really like to lay that burden on everyone around us, so we just keep the ***to ourselves, when it's small stuff anyways. When we're keeping it to ourselves we tend to not really want to socialize, just because we can be read like an open book and it's pretty easy to spot that we're not exactly happy atm, which usually prompts the question "what's wrong? bad day?" which means we either lie and say nothing is wrong when it's transparently evident, or we have to talk about it, which as I said, we generally don't like to do.

BTW, sorry if it seems like I'm trying to push you into contacting him or anything, I'm just trying to give my insight/advice being a man and knowing how we work.. Ultimately, it is entirely your decision..

ill sleep on it and decide what ill do tomorrow lol i know ur not trying to be pushy lol good to hear a detailed side from the guys not just a "lol idk" from my friends lol :3

just met the owner of iamserene.com at yacht haven grand , very interesting.

My random thought of the night: Why do people that I hardly talked to in high school want to add me on their Facebook? :/ I think that's been about 95% of the people who have added me.

Because all those social networking sites are nothing more than popularity contests, it's not about networking, it's about having the most people on your friendslist.

Ever been so upset or disgusted you feel downright ill or have urges to vomit?
Yeah, that's how I feel tonight.

Yep, I'm an emotional person.. Me and my 2 brothers are that way, everyone of us will cry when we get in a fight (physical, not verbal) but not because we're hurting, we just get that damn angry.. My brother would literally get in a fight, beat the living ***out of the other person, not really get hit at all, and still tear up and ***after it was over.. Kinda weird, never known anyone other than us that did that.

You have ulcers? Stress can aggravate them, and a symptom, although not one of the common ones, can be nausea.

No, but I feel sick and my feet lost sensation.

How it sucks I can't play FFXI anymore, not since the Tsunami/Earthquake. I live in Korea and there's apparently some connection problem over here. :/

Not sure then, could also be anxiety, people with anxiety disorders (like me) can have their body produce surplus adrenaline when they get upset, dunno if you've ever had a panic attack, but the ***is horrible, nausea almost always accompanies it. (If you've ever fainted, a panic attack feels a lot like the few seconds right before the tunnel closes and you pass out) Numbness is also a common component of a panic attack. I once went blind during a really bad panic attack, everything just went black, I was fully conscious, I was sweating so bad I could wring out my shirt and it looked like I just jumped out of a pool. Everything was numb.. Gah, I hate them.

Could be any number of reasons why being upset would make you sick.

I don't think I've experienced anything that severe. At least not under typical circumstance or anytime remotely recent.
Just having a difficult time dealing with things in life right now and with other people. The gravity of everything weighs heavy on my mind and it makes me literally ill.

Specificly?

I went through (and still am) a midlife crisis, even though I'm only 25.. Of course using midlife crisis in strict terms of symptoms. It's like a textbook symptom for symptom diagnosis.

As cliche' as it sounds, no matter what you're going through (short of a terminal illness) things will get better at some point. It helps me to not focus on the darkness and my stumbling along the tracks, but looking for the light at the end of the tunnel.. Eventually I will see it, and I will be through whatever tribulations I'm currently going through. I'm not really much of an optimist, but if I focused on everything that's going wrong in my life, I would probably self-destruct completely.

I'm only 25, but I have went through a lot in my life.. More than most go through in twice that time. I can't really say much for my well being, but I'm still here.

Have you tried talking to anyone you're close to about your problems? I'm not huge on sharing my inner thoughts and feelings, but when something is really weighing heavily on me, I always do end up turning to someone to talk it out, if nothing else, it helps me put my thoughts together, understand what's going on, and put things in perspective.

Let's just say I'm putting my "armor" back on indefinitely.
Going to try and get some sleep. Goodnight.

im thinking this is just not my week lol

Im *** tired and I need a beer.

i want a snack

but nothing to snack on

; ;

2000 word essays suck... ooooooo shiny... wait... ack... must concentrate ><