Random Thoughts.....What Are You Thinking?

Random Thought:

=3

You got your redwings?

Yes and they won 4-2 last night =D

Today already has a hint of suck.

Well, gear seems to match what is showing on Scragg's account, also, Cerb is the server his character is listed as, further, the pearl also matches the one he has listed.

I'd say that's the real Scragg.

This Chicken is good...

A friend of mine killed herself this morning. She was a baby, not even 21 yet. I just don't understand how people can get to that point where they are willing to hurt themselves and risk the unknown versus manning up and facing what life has to offer. This is a double whammy for her family because her uncle was killed last year.

She and I weren't even that close, so I don't know why this is hurting so much. Maybe because so many of my friends were extremely close to her and I feel so horrible for them. I don't know. In any case, I'm going to bed. Enough of this crying ***.

you'll be fine

/comfort... stuff like that is never all that easy to deal with...

/hugs My friend Mike killed himself so I know how you feel, if u want to PM me to talk..feel free <3 Much love

So I set my alarm on my phone to play a nice wake up song so I'm actually looking forward to it going off tomorrow morning...

Only three hours of work left, yes!!

It's hard to understand unless you've been there. And when you try to explain your friends will often give lame encouragement and eventually when that doesn't work just leave you... often for selfish or cowardly reasons which obviously make it worse

All I can tell you, is sometimes you get backed into a corner, or find yourself in a hole that you just can't seem to get out of. No one can really help, despite them saying constantly 'come to me when you need help' or the like. Some just can't handle it, others, like myself, break through and become stronger for it, but with a new perspective, one of sympathy.

I'm not saying I would just be okay with, or accept someone I cared about killing themselves, I wouldn't turn a blind eye (despite the fact that I damn well know I can't help) but I would at least understand it. I wouldn't call them selfish or hate them for it, nor would I really wonder why. I've been there, I know how it feels, I barely made it out myself.

In the wake of death people often think they could/should have done more, or feel guilt, surely there were signs you must've seen.. The truth is, unless someone is just bat ***crazy, the signs are very subtle, and you have to actually be looking for them to really notice them, and if you are looking for that behavior in the first place, it probably means you already know, or at least suspect it in the first place.

To try to lighten the mood somewhat here, apparently I'm gonna have a kid and didn't realize it.

I'm thinking this add for a quarter pounder with cheese next to this box I'm typing in is making me hungry...

oh lord im missing some fun

also tell kaht his text colors are ugly as hell

It got better, a shout for paying someone 300k to leech off a trial turned into how paying for stuff is RMT, then somewhere it became 'Abyssea ruined exp', and then it turned into Hades vs. Cerberus. I'll see if I can SS it all.

wow, i leave and everyone goes crazy

I'm thinking my bipolar boyfriend is driving me insane with his mood swings and blowing things out of proportion...if only he wasn't so good in bed.....

I guess it must be that awesome to endure such insanity.


I gave up trying to screenshot everything, took too much space.

Done at the gym. Going to log on soon and hopefully have some fun!!

Lol role reversals wut

I really need to stay up later. All the good stuff happens after I go to bed.

And thanks for the words of encouragement guys. I think I'm just hurting for my friends and her family. Plus because of how young she was. I just held onto my daughter for dear life last night. She always seemed so full of life, I don't think anyone really knew she had such deep problems.

Since when was bard able to swap instruments without losing TP?
I just now noticed this.

I know, that's how it works for everybody. I figured TP would just vanish so I never bothered meleeing. But I wanted to skill up, and I noticed while using my macros for songs to put instruments in for effects, my TP didn't vanish to 0; it stayed the same.

mfw I saw that:


This gives me a whole new perspective when it comes to bard now.

That is kinda funny. I got a leech pt myself yays. Kinda started going downhill fast but still managed to do 30-63.

Alot of people don't know what to look for. And alot of people kinda hide it. Or some will just be like oh it's not that bad.

Wonder what's worse after. Not knowing or having known and just bailed?

Side note why am I still up and why aren't I packing? Bleh too tired to do anything but can't sleep